"There is always a gap between the impulse to step into the unknown and the realization that one has..."
Mahrud ad Nil
I spent a day hovering over the gap. I had put one foot forward (a brave, foolish, or optimistic, foot...I didn't know which) and as that naive foot hovered over future ground, I trembled inwardly. What if I become lost in the gap---the dark "nether place" that follows impulse and intention but precedes any sort of resolution or success...Ah, the unknown. Suppose the gap is so wide that I do not find footing on the other side. The other side---of the problem, puzzle, idea, intention, belief. I am drawn to the unknown, while at the same time, I am discomfited by the absence of knowledge that hovers before it. Drawn and discomfited! Although not dissuaded...I hasten to say.
It seems that my tried and true formula for living---for most of my life, that is---is composed of one part imagination, one part declaration and one part risk. I spring forward. I leap--often without looking! I commit. Commit to what? To adventure? To love? To dreams? (perchance)? I commit to Life.
"I will drink Life to the lees...
Much have I seen and known; cities of men
And manners, climates, councils, governments,
Myself not least, but honored of them all;
Far on the ringing plains of windy Troy.
I am a part of all that I have met;
Yet all experience is an arch wherethrough
Gleams that untraveled world." Alfred Lord Tenneyson Ulysses (1842)
I am going around the world---and soon. And there are gaps in my plan: money, itinerary, arrangements for my house and pets...and, still: I am going around the world...and I am leaving in December. And I am minding the gaps...
Soon I will be seventy...This forthcoming trip is a gift, a challenge, and my celebration of the wonder of it all.
Seventy! I am inspired by a quote attributed to Oliver Wendell Holmes. At ninety, he is said to have said, upon seeing a beautiful young woman...
"Oh, to be seventy again."
That's worth remembering, as I "mind the gap"...and step forward!!